The path to bliss, for some..

I first felt the urge to be dominated at 8 years old. I could not have understood what I was felling, but I felt it none the less. I would end up with a girl friend who embraced dominance at 15, she was 14. By the third time we were fooling around I was collared, never looking back.

For the next 26 years I would be trained to serve, best I could through my immature male ego. The kink was quite amazing, long term chastity and all of that. Then she would become ill and a very bad divorce ensued.

I was remarried very quickly, 34 days. It was new and exciting. I could perform in a vanilla sense, for a time. After a year or so sex fell off as I could not perform. No erection. We tried it all, the little blue pill. porn, etc. Nothing.

Too much time would pass and the marriage suffered, until one sunny afternoon I came clean with my history. The new wife took it all in, but she would need some time to process. It was quite an emotional roller coaster as new wife saw it as playing old wife’s game. She was interested, but that concept held her back for a time where she would play for a few months, and then off.

There came a time where through lots of conversation, over lots of time she came aboard on a full time basis.For 5 years it was incredible. She liked to tease at public events how I came pre-trained. That I did all of the house work and followed her lead. We became very public with our dynamic. Women in restaurants would approach my wife and ask for advice after watching us, and specifically me serving my wife.

One night, it was as if some one threw a switch. It all stopped for about a year and a half. Two weeks ago there was realignment, renewed connection. She is not fully aboard yet, but very much on her way.

Through my lens and our discussions, there are several contributing factors, some of which I am responsible for.
It has only been a few days, but I am happy to be on the right path.

The emotional fears that haunt my wife’s thoughts are typical from what I read. My short comings are of the same. Patients is a lesson I learned some years ago and will employ it here. I think my message here is the impossible only takes longer. It is a much shorter ride when you remove the ego from your though processes. Those are easy words and it has taken me some twelve years to retrain my mind to come to this place…