53 / CT Need Direction

I was married for 30 years and have been divorced for a few years. My marriage could be descibed as an FLR but I dont think the term even existed back then. I left my marriage because I believed I was no longer getting anything from the relationship. I was doing all of the housework and making all of the income and although I remained faithful to my ex , I was expected to just accept that she had other relationships. The spankings were no longer exciting for me they just hurt.

Since being divorced I am finding that i am unable to function in a “normal” relationship. My ex has moved on and the women I have dated are not interested in taking control. I am not interested in BDSM or being dressed like a woman. I do not want to be humiliated. I want to serve a woman who wants to be served.