How I self discovered my submissive side and desire for a Female Led Relationship
My intent for these words are to convey how I might become a partner in an FLR. Also I must also share that I have read many blogs and I think I have an understanding of the many forms an FLR could take. So to juxtapose my particular desire against all of the articles on About FLR has led me to a sense of what I could best thrive in.
How it started:
I had a long term partner and I must say that I have been a self deluded Alpha most of my life. I was raised in the patriarchy and only with age did I discover my submissive side. About two years back and also having my partner complain about my cussing. I will admit that it was pervasive. Some how roaming the web I ran across the Disciplinary Wives Club. I read the whole website several times and came to the conclusion that a way to address my cussing was to give my partner the right to use a hairbrush on my bare bottom if I continued to curse. The thought of getting that spanking was a huge motivation and truth be told she never had to actually spank me and I stopped cussing.
This concept worked well so other bad habits were eventually addressed my spanking me and the pain was very hard to take and the result was it changed my behavior. What I discovered is I began to crave my partner to exert more control over me. This was not to be as she had this sprang on her and in some ways its not fair expect someone to understand this need.
Also I discovered that I am not into cuckolding, or forced femininity or someone who is overtly cruel. I want to truly love and be loved in return. The difference is I want to worship a woman for all of her intelligence, beauty, inner strength and over time grow together and be happy with what we will build.
Another reason for sharing these words is to say what what I read there seems to be more of a BDSM/slave component assigned to FLR and this is not what I seek, In my imagination I see two people who fall in love and the woman is the dominant with a velvet glove.
I hope this make sense and hopefully there is a woman out there who I could connect with.
I have lately practiced imagining your face and the shape of your heart in hopes of hastening our rendezvous. Each time in the quiet part of my mind your there smiling and your expression says to me search until you find me, I am here if you look. So it is I find myself here and I am encouraging you to seek me as well.
How many roads traveled, many no doubt but we have so much to share and so many more to explore. What mere words can explain to you the love that spills over from my heart trying to flow into you, trying to find your smile? We all search and at this age with discretion and angst with our eye on the high hanging fruit and perhaps that’s normal to not be willing to settle but to be willing to search without regret and to be thankful not to be fooled for less.
What lessons are we destined to learn while we linger in an embrace? To what depths will the roots of our contentment mingle and to others become a beacon of how love can transform two souls. I want to encourage a simultaneous voice and silent language of the heart that binds us through our travails in this life and the next.
Though nothing changes this world less the attitude with which we perceive it I am reconstructing my attitudes so that I might recognize that pure heart should it pass my way for how many have I lost by the blindness I have so willingly accepted yet now release. My invitation to you and my hope is that you be blessed with new vision that leads you to me for is it not so easy to skip over buried treasure eyes locked on a mirage.
Whatever force it is that moves a heart to seek another it is no doubt potent and knows no end. For those who have walked this path and have become weary seeking to be fortified perhaps it is you I am destined for, as I have been just as weary.
If you are at that stage in your life when clarity pervades and in your deepest inner pool where you can see you’re self and know that you are ready for a love that has no bounds then please don’t hesitate to contact me I am patiently waiting.
I have missed you. We have been separated for too long and I do want to meet you as I have so much to tell you.
What I miss most about you is the way your voice always calms me when I am stressed. Wasn’t it funny when we picked those blueberries and ate too many to make that pie, but their essence lingered when I kissed your lips?
I long for those quiet weekends in the mountains when we lie in the hammock and listen to the cool wind in the trees. Don’t forget that article we read on the food festival in Italy that features only heirloom foods like those 3000-year-old apricot trees from Pompeii, we always said we would find a way.
I can’t wait to smell that new fragrance that only exists when you wear it. We have to find a way to play golf together, my game needs so much work maybe we could go away for a weekend and let me duff through a round.
We were lucky to be able to meet in Tampa and see the Dali museum so interesting to hear the background of the paintings. I also forgot to tell you about the red sunset in Kansas City and the Canadian geese from horizon to horizon, remind me to elaborate. I also wanted you to hear the Chris Boti and Lucinda Williams CD’s, know how eclectic your taste in music. Not sure if this letter will find you, I have been searching and I admit have missed you so far, but I refuse to give up. I know your out there, we will find each other, maybe we will get lucky and fate will just hold out its hand or perhaps I mistake someone else for you, either way we will find each other. All I have ever wanted was to find you and shall never give up. If I miss you this time wait on me up the road, I will be coming to meet you.Sincerely
Tom